I haven't posted for a couple of months. I've had a rough time of it the last couple of weeks though. My doctor prescribed me clomid to help me get pregnant, and I'm not pregnant. Then she put me through tests and tests, to really find nothing new. I don't know where to go from here. I've always been pretty healthy, at a healthy weight, and now my body is not functioning properly to have a baby. This month will be our 3rd anniversary, and it's so hard to still not have any children. My heart is broken over this. I'm searching for things to be grateful for in this to look on the brighter side, and all I can find is the basic comforts of life I have. I have what I need, I have parents who love and support me, and I have the knowledge of my Savior, Jesus Christ, who can heal broken hearts. Today is fast Sunday and in my fasting prayers, I ask the Lord to direct me. I know that wanting to have a baby is a righteous desire. The Lord commands us to be parents. Parenting brings us closer to God and helps us to become more like Him. I am not sure exactly what to ask for in my prayers, though. Should I ask the Lord to bless my body so that I can get pregnant? Should I ask the Lord to direct me to know what supplements, or medications to take that will most benefit me? Or should I just ask the Lord to direct my paths to lead me to parenthood whether it's through adoption or biological means. Maybe I need to get over the thought of giving birth to my child and accept a child that comes to me through adoption.
