When I found out that my husband wanted to end our marriage, I retreated to prayer and in my heartache, I poured out my soul to Heavenly Father and wanted an answer on three specific things: 1) I felt like I would be a misfit as a single, divorced woman in her late 20's going to church in a church so focused on families 2) I didn't understand why I felt so right about marrying in the first place; why was I led down this "wrong road" and 3) I wanted to know where I stood before Him; where was my fault in all this? I prayed and prayed and felt nothing and then I thought to myself that I had not read my scriptures that morning and I considered where I should read, I considered a few things, but I remembered that I had never finished listening to the talks from the General Relief Society meeting so I listened to the talk by Linda S. Reeves that I hadn't heard yet. The second half answered each one of my questions in order. She mentions Jacob 2, which I feel is an applicable scripture to my situation. I want to quote one portion from the words of the ancient prophet Jacob to his people,
"Ye have broken the hearts of your tender wives, and lost the confidence of your children, because of your bad examples before them; and the sobbings of their hearts ascend up to God against you."
I had wondered previously if God had heard my prayers. When I found out about "the other girl" I cried to God about it, and felt like He wasn't there. I remember feeling so alone. I know now that He heard and He was there listening to the "sobbings of my heart."
Anyways the talk I heard that answered my prayer related a story about the Provo tabernacle burning down. Why did God allow this to happen? He could have stopped the fire. But He allowed it to burn the inside of the building totally, creating a new beginning for that building. Later that year, the prophet announced that it would become a magnificent temple, a house of the Lord, a most holy place. So it is with our lives. We are refined from the inside so that we can become magnificent. What it is I will become I am not sure. I know that I have developed more compassion for others through this, realizing that all are fighting a battle at some or many points in their lives. Anyways, here is the link, it's an awesome talk. My answers start at 4:10, but the whole thing is great.
I am grateful that I have been taught to pray so that when the "tempest is raging" I know to turn to the Master.
"Ye have broken the hearts of your tender wives, and lost the confidence of your children, because of your bad examples before them; and the sobbings of their hearts ascend up to God against you."
I had wondered previously if God had heard my prayers. When I found out about "the other girl" I cried to God about it, and felt like He wasn't there. I remember feeling so alone. I know now that He heard and He was there listening to the "sobbings of my heart."
Anyways the talk I heard that answered my prayer related a story about the Provo tabernacle burning down. Why did God allow this to happen? He could have stopped the fire. But He allowed it to burn the inside of the building totally, creating a new beginning for that building. Later that year, the prophet announced that it would become a magnificent temple, a house of the Lord, a most holy place. So it is with our lives. We are refined from the inside so that we can become magnificent. What it is I will become I am not sure. I know that I have developed more compassion for others through this, realizing that all are fighting a battle at some or many points in their lives. Anyways, here is the link, it's an awesome talk. My answers start at 4:10, but the whole thing is great.
I am grateful that I have been taught to pray so that when the "tempest is raging" I know to turn to the Master.
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