Wrong Roads

This video was a reassurance to me.  Going through a divorce makes one question faith.  When I chose to marry Zach I felt very strongly that it was the right thing for me to do.  I prayed about it and pondered it and went to the temple about it.  I felt such a strong answer that it was right and then this is what happens.  Three years of my life feel like they are down the drain.  I tried my best to make it work and it didn't matter to him.  He just didn't love me.  Looking back now I recognize that because I often tried to hold his hand or kiss him and he would just not return the affection.  That is not love.  This morning I was questioning the reality of the Spirit of personal revelation.  Either the spirit doesn't really communicate with us or I just am bad at communicating with it.  This is what I was thinking because of my failed marriage that I had felt so confident would last.  Elder Holland's words bring me peace.  My marriage to Zach was a dead end.  But maybe there is a purpose in it.  I at least know that I am not at fault as far as the divorce goes.  I would not have decided on it.  I would have chosen to work through our imperfections.  I tried to let go and forgive him for having a relationship with another girl.  And now I have proven my commitment.  Despite heartaches I would have held on to Zach as long as he would have stayed, but he left.

Now I am looking forward.  What was I to gain from all this?  What can I learn?  One thing I know is I will not lose faith.

Please watch!

http://www.mormonchannel.org/video/mormon-messages?v=2714780496001